My Child

Dear God, You gave me this child. and you promised me that you would take care of me and this child. You reminded me when she was a little over three years old that she depeneded on me to take of her, well Father I have taken care of her. I have brought her up in chruch, and I have been a pretty good mother, but I failed my child when I cannot provide for her. Oh sure I can keep a roof over her head, and keep her warm druing the winter months, and even keep food in the house for her to eat. But why, please tell me why, is it, tht when it comes to special times, I feel like you forsake me, so that I cannot give her a few extra things in life, especially at Christmas and on her birthday. I have said it before, I am tired of living this way. If it was just me, I would have no problem living this way, but why does my daughter have to suffer. Why iis it that she can't go back to school after the Christmas break and brag about what she got for Christmas. Instead, she has to listen to what everybody else got, and not be able to share anything that she got becuase she doesn't get anything. Why God, please tell me why. As I have said before, I cannot understand this. Punish me, not my child. What did she do to deserve to have to go without on Christmas morning. I just don't understand. Every year I say I hope I don't have to do this again, but you know what every year I do. When will this madness ever stop. She is just an innocent little girl who does not deserve this. Oh well, life will go on, we will just treat Christmas as another ordinary day.